Sunday, March 07, 2010

Lessons from the recent episode

I felt that I was over-reacting to the irregular heartbeat (Heart Skipping a Beat). The GP that I visited advised me not to participate. I got a second opinion from a doctor, provided details on my heart history, and she felt that it should be normal.
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My heartbeat is perfectly normal now. I have done marathon and Olympic Distance Triathlon, and I did not face any heart problems. I have decided to participate the Aviva Half-Ironman in 2 weeks time. Will not push myself too hard especially if I do not feel well, and would stop if necessary. It is my own race.
Thanks for all the concerns!
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These are some of the things I learned from this episode:
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1. There are many things in life beyond my control, as long as I have given my best I should be happy, and be at peace with it. Do not need to get frustrated, as I know I have tried my best. Success is knowing that I have done my best given my limitations and constraints.
2. Enjoying the Journey is more important than Reaching the Destination. As I might never reach the destination, and quite often, the Journey is more interesting than the Destination.
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3. Stop thinking about "Why me?"
Last year, I did not reach Kalapatthar during the Everest Base Camp Hike because of Altitude Sickness. I was wondering "Why Me?". Today, I asked myself this question again. It is a useless question! Just accept it and MOVE ON.
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4. Death is not a statistics.
I was reading articles about fit and healthy triathletes who died, mainly due to cardiac/heart related problem. These are real healthy fit people, and i could be part of the statistics. Death is REAL... It is a totally different experience when I am able to visualise my death, and not looking at it from a dettached point of view. 
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5. Good to have friends, as always. =)
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I guess every triathlete has their own story.
Everytime I asked myself: Is it worth it?
I am not ready for this Aviva Half-ironman, and this is my short story:
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2nd Aug'09: Completed my first OD Triathlon
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31st Aug'09: Had a fall during cycling and fractured my wrist.
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Sep'09: Out of action & went traveling to Perth
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Oct/Nov 09: Went Nepal for 3 weeks (fell sick, and recovered 2 weeks after coming back)
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Dec'09: Struggled to run 5km & decided to skip StandChart Marathon.
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Last Week of Dec'09: Tried Cycling again after 3 months (fell down again with minor scratches). I wanted to throw away my cycling shoes & clips, but I told myself that I should not be defeated by stupid clips.
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2nd Jan'10: Struggled to keep up with RF during the 40km cycle (1st time after the fall).
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Jan'10: Having been Cycling with guards - having phobia of cycling & falling.
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28th Jan'10: Decided to sign up Aviva Half-Ironman. RF decides to skip and do OSIM OD Triathlon instead.
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Feb'10: Sick for 10days during CNY & fitness deteriorated. =(
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19th Feb'10: Swam with RF, who mentioned that he was surprised that I signed up for Aviva HIM, considering that I was struggling with 40km cycle a month ago.
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27th Feb'10 (Sat): 18km Run - 1hr 58mins (Struggled)
28th Feb'10 (Sun): 85km Cycle - 3hr 24min (Struggled too)
1st Mar'10 (Mon): Rest
2nd Mar'10 (Tues): 22km Run - 2hr 14min
3rd Mar'10 (Wed): 3km Swim - 1hr 13min
4th Mar'10 (Thurs): 1hr Cycle, 4km Run & 30mins Weights
5th Mar'10 (Fri): Rest
6th Mar'10 (Sat): 22km Run - 2hr 28min (Stuggled & The sun was killing me)
7th Mar'09: 90km Cycle & 4km Run - 4hours (Struggling as well)
Irregular heartbeats detected.
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I think I am overestimating my abilities & I am not that young anymore. I am not ready for Aviva Half-Ironman. May be the irregular heartbeat is telling me not to stress myself too hard. Last few training sessions had been PAINFUL.
Will I look back to think that I am foolish?
I just know that Life is not about seeing it from hindsight, but living the moment.
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5 comments:

Yingel said...
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Boon said...

Thank You!!!
I did not realize that taking part in Triathlon is like a mini-life journey. So much ups and downs... and more importantly, so many things to learn along the way.

Will listen to my body. You are right, this is just another goal. =)

karenthecat said...

wow! thats impressive! i thought my 4k today at the gym was fantastic already! anyway, yes i agree, ACCEPT AND MOVE ON. the world and the people on it do not stop just to mourn with you. Acceptance is key!

IE5208 said...

Peaked at 2nd Aug, and gradual downhill after that.. Hmmm..

Fear not, I anticipate Dec 10 will be the beginning of another climb to peak :P

*I wonder why :p*

IE5208 said...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-8XSit8XyeM

enugh said