Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Reminder

Chasing careers and materials in life sometimes cause blindness in us. We are constantly chasing something we don’t have but most of the time forgot the most precious things we already have in our life, our dear Mom. If we can’t even do the basic of taking care of our parents, what is the use of being successful when we can’t even fulfill the basic task as a human. So remember to cherish them before it is too late…

A Mothers Love
by Author Unknown

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Who am I? - Part 2

Imagine...
If I lost all my physical possessions ...
If my friends and family left me...
If I lost my memories...
If I have nothing...
who am I?

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Who am I?

Imagine...
If I am extremely stupid, disfigured, ugly, physically impaired, obscenely obese, living as destitute, been failing all my life....
Will I have any self-esteem?
...
Always heard that one should exude confidence from within, one should be comfortable with oneself to be confident ...
As far as I wanted to be idealistic and optimistic... I think it's crap!!!
When you have never experienced any success in your life, how could you feel confident?
Ask a destitute in Calcultta to be confident...
Ask a child prostitute in Bangkok to be confident...
...
Now it's getting a bit depressing...

Sunday, July 29, 2007

How to get more?

We can get more by giving more... sounds rather counter-intuition. (I think this applies to most things except for $$... haha, well, it applies for money too... to a certain extent)

I realise that if you give more to other people, eventually, you will get back what you give and even more...

This applies to knowledge, love, kindness, help, and even money.

One of my turning point in my study life was in Secondary three. Remembered that one of my rivals back in school mentioned that Boon Han is nothing (in terms of studies) if there is no Maths. He's quite right - my languages & humanities sucks! During Saturdays, I would return to School to do my homework & to teach my friends who were weak in A-Math. I was really helpful, with no hidden agenda, except that both my friends and I would benefit. True enough, I got abck more than what I gave...

Another recent examples: I was very much into investing stocks. Spent many hours trying to find good online websites for information. I realised that after I share with all my friends my small little online gems, I got even more from them.

that's why I advocate sharing as long as it's not at your own expense (like sharing money, or limited entities like work opportunities).

More importantly, what's the price for making another being happier and better? Priceless.

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Silicon Valley

Ruifeng is going to back to the Bay Area tomorrow.
Out of a sudden, I missed those days in Silicon Valley after 2.5 years. Memories flooded back while looking at the photos and the website:
(I am SO glad that I created this website, kinda "relive" it again... kinda)
Those days weren't easy. Lotsa stress & pressure. Trying to balance work, study & NUSEA. There were many days when I had to eat my dinner (Mc'chicken) while driving to project meeting. When I had limited sleep that I would settle for Mc'chicken for lunch and slept in my car during lunch break. I felt really low at times like working hard in Stanford lab at 3am on weekdays. There were times when I felt extremely lonely and feeling like crap...
It was hard, but rewarding...
In the end, there was always a moment of Exhilaration. There were so many moments that I felt so inspired. There were moments when we were feeling so down, but we encouraged and cheered each other on, telling ourselves that our time in the States was limited and we gotta make the best out of it.
It was still the best time of my life.
For a moment, I felt that I was living the American dream.
I felt that as long as I worked hard and believed in myself, I could do it.
I was constantly challenging myself to work hard... to move out of my comfort zone... to learn as much as possible (to be very hungry for knowledge)...
To experience life...
doing all the stupid things... trying all the new things...
Now, where is all my enthusiasm & zeal towards life???
Where is my hunger for knowledge???
More important question:
Could I ever live like that again?
I could have died.... is there such thing as destiny??
Lastly, I had never thank my Arbor Brothers for making our apartment a home in a foreign land: